July 5th, 2007 (11:22 am)
how I'm feeling: blah
what I'm listening to: "Turn On Me" -- The Shins
You can fake it for a while,
Bite your tongue and smile,
Like every mother does her ugly child.
But it starts to leaking out,
Like spittle from a cloud,
Amassed resentment pelting ounce and pound.
You're entertaining any doubt,
Because you had to know that I was fond of you,
Fond of Y-O-U,
Though I knew you masked your disdain.
I can see the change was just too hard for us,
Hard for us.
You always had to hold the reigns,
But where I'm headed, you just don't know the way.
So affections fade away,
And do adults just learn to play
The most ridiculous, repulsive games?
On the favored ruddy sons,
And the double-barreled guns,
You better hurry,
Rabbit, run, run, run.
'Cause mincing you is fun,
And there's a lot of hungry hatters in this world
Set on taking over.
But brittle thorny stems
They break before they bend,
And neither one of us is one of them.
And the tears will never mend,
'Cause you had it in for me so long ago.
Boy, I still don't know,
I don't know why and I don't care,
If you'd only seen yourself hating me.
When I'd been so much more than fair.
But then you'd have to lay those feelings bare,
One thing I know still got you scared,
Yeah all that cold ire,
And never once aired on a dare.
You had to know that I was fond of you,
Fond of Y-O-U.
So I took your licks at the time,
And a change like that is just so hard to do,
Hard to do.
Don't let it whip-crack your life,
And I'll bow out from the fight,
Those old pious sisters were right.
The worst part is over,
Now, get back on that horse and ride.